If you actually began to seek Him and Focus on the Will and Destiny he wants for your Life. He would provide your needs according to His riches and Glory.
Matthew 6:33 (King James Version)
33But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.
You seek Jesus First and His Kingdom, and not for the blessings or the signs and wonders, But for relationship and True Love for God and you wanting to fulfill the Will and Destiny of God in your life. He ll add the other things you need in your Life. But He ll do it His way and in His TIme!!!!!
You have messed up Theology or Concept of who God is if your seeking Jesus for the wrong reasons!!!! He knows your heart.
Increase your Faith, stop walkin after the Flesh but after the Spirit, Start Believing in Jesus and His Word and that He is Who He says He His.
Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us. Ephesians 3:20
Do you have the Faith to believe this? Without Faith you can not please God. Stop worrying so much about your Date but start Focusing on where God wants to take you if your Willing!!!! Your Destiny!!!!